Lisle.

I want a car.

I really do.

I want a sorta expensive, sporty, japanese car.

Most importantly, I want to open up my credit

For a better future. I have plans i wish to execute..

And a good credit history and money is needed.

And I was inches close to speaking with a salesman

At the dealership. I drove in and parked.

But the moment arise, my teeth crunched and my thoughts burned.

And i just thought how was I was going to leave really soon..

And I thought how the car was going to be here for months, just sitting around.

I was thinking of opening a public storage parking

Space, because I didn't want my parents having to deal with a car just sitting there. But if you know about cars or mechanics, engines of any sort shouldn't sit around for long periods of times. Nothing like 4-5 months for a car is any good. And I thought about the money I was going to spend.

A down payment maybe, temporary license plates, real license plates, city stickers, insurance.

It just seem like too much of a sacrifice for such a short period of time.

it really doesn't seem worth the hassle. Sigh.

and its a little amusing that i leave the dealership, with regret right after.

damn. i really want the car. i got everything possible to get it. i have to be responsible with what i'm purchasing and where i'm going.

Do i want it or need it? damnit.